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Testing Day

YAY!! My last day o class. Review and test and home early. And since I sat up until 2am jacked up on Dew, I am guessing I will be Princess SleepyPants by noon.
I sooo need to stay away from that crack. I had been doing so well and really feeling the positive effects of resisting my addition. But then I did what every addict does...I exposed myself when I was at my weakest. 10pm cig run in the midst of my redecorating here. I was feeling creative and joyful. My graphical therapy had done its trick in relaxing me. Tossed on a pair of flips and didn't bother with the bra. I could have walked past that frosted glass cooler, but I figured wth. One can't hurt, right?. Well I was wrong, it didn't drag me off the wagon, but it sure as hell made me feel like I got hit by a Mac truck.
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  1. QueenieJuly 31, 2008 at 9:41 AM

    Step away from the Dew. It is satan. It will taunt you until you give in to its icy sweetness and then use you and toss your sugar filled body aside like day old trash.

    Ya know, I could have just said "don't drink it. It's bad for you" but what fun is there in that.

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