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No thanks

Tomorrow is my last day of work. The end of 5 years of service. My emotions had been a bit bittersweet. Until yesterday when I received my year end evaluation.

I do not profess to be the best at my job. By far not perfect. I have a tendency to bend the rules to fit my needs, but never the important rules. And never the rules that jeopardize the integrity of what I do. So I listen to my head phones when I'm not supposed to. But I only listen with 1 ear bud in place. That way I am able to continue functioning in my environment, yet I still feed the need of my brain to be stimulated on many levels at once. I occasionally will take a phone call while on the clock. I try to make sure it is during my down time, but I am still on the clock.

My evaluation consists of about 25 questions that are marked in 4 categories. The categories are unsatisfactory, needs improvement, meets requirements and exceeds requirements. I should add here that my evaluation was completed by my zone supervisor. A woman who I spoke to no more then 3 times all year regarding work related issues. Most had to do with unsafe situations needing attention to become safe. Of the 25 questions on my evaluation, 18 I met the requirements for that duty, 6 I exceeded the requirements and 1 I was unsatisfactory on.

When I sat down with said zone manager, any idea what was said to me?? Was it anything to do with the 6 points that I exceed at? Was it about meeting the requirements for 98% of the job I have done for 5 years? Of course not. The only think said to me pertained to the ONE unsatisfactory mark against me. 3 guesses what it is? Could it be that I am accident prone and had a crash? Maybe I yelled at a student and was a total bitch? Maybe I spit at a co-worker over some stupid high school drama crap?? Nope. It is because I missed more work then they see fit. Unsatisfactory attendance.

So said zone manager says to me, "I realise your family had some difficulties this year, but your attendance is unsatisfactory" I add, ever so sarcastically that apparently the source is irrelevant. To which she agrees. Might I add here that since Sept of last year my hubs broke his back at work and ruptured his spinal membrane. Unable to drive for over a month with weekly appointments to attend x 3. My bonus daughter lost her biological brother in a tragic death. My mom had a very critical reaction to some medication and was literally unable to leave her bed for a week AND my daughter is 16 ( nuff said on this one) If I add up the days I missed work for ME, there are 4 days. 2 of which were due to an abscessed tooth and root canal procedure.

5 years. I haven't crashed, I haven't smacked anyone (although the thought has crossed my mind a time or two) I haven't gotten into any bitch fights with co-worked. I have shown up, done a damn good job and minded my own business.

I guess my reward is the self satisfaction of knowing I do a good job. Cause obviously there will be no thanks from the powers that be. I am a mom and wife FIRST! I have never denied that fact. I will not change that to conform to some uncaring impersonal company.

cest la vie I am off to bigger and better things.

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